Today was a day.

Unfortunately not a day that I will look back on as one of my better days.  Do you ever have days when you wake up and it's like a cloud is around you that you can't shake?  Actually I didn't even notice right away.  Then I heard myself saying no over and over again.  I'm usually a yes mom.  If it's not harmful and if we aren't going anywhere or doing anything, I will typically say sure why not to the kids requests.  Not today though.

Once I realized it, I tried to undo the damage.  Did you ever notice that those moods can be contagious? The kids picked up on it and were being snarpy with each other and easily frustrated by little things.

Why am I like that at times? Beside the obvious fact that I still struggle with sin everyday.  I thought about it a lot today, and I came to the conclusion that it happens when I stop putting others first.  The others in this case were my kids.  There were things that I wanted to do today.  Not important things, just things. So when their needs intruded, I got cranky.  Wow, that sounds so ugly.  But it's the truth. 

I'm happy to say that the day ended better than it started.  I got really good snuggles with Logan. I tucked Eli in twice even though she is notorious for requesting a post snuggle tuck long after she is supposed to be asleep.  And I didn't get upset with Ben when he jokingly threw a glass of water at me.  Eleven year old boys can be soooooooo fun.  It was kind of funny how surprised he was that his bed was all wet even though I was sitting on it when he decided to douse me.